Do you remember when we were babies and you protected me at night by sleeping under my lofted bed? Remember curling up in my papasaun chair, so college, and playing trapeze swinger over and over again to soothe my nightmares and keep me sleeping? "Please, remember me, fondly." Remember when you held me while I cried and had a breakdown and you said "look at my stomach! I'm so fat!" to try to make my relapse better and you hugged me so tightly? Remember when you broke up with your first ever girlfriend that you loved and you came to my room and we sat together and I held you and cuddled you while you cried? Remember how good we were? Remember when we stopped being friends? It still hurts me so so so deeply and maybe I'm just vulnerable now and wish I still had you as a friend but there it is.
Tonight I had a bad bad bad experience. So tonight I'm sitting in my bed, playing trapeze swinger over and over again and maybe I'll drift to sleep.
I miss you friend.
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