-a crossword in slayter pit with homo and brendan while drinking coffee, waiting for yohnzo and liz.
-an all nighter in slayter top floor watching the sunrise, a library back step break, watching the cars, trying to sit in the sunlit spots to stay warm
-river road.
-sunshiney people saying hello.
-boys who drink all saturday, all day, long, and goad others into joining. playtime in shep
-pine tree scents and cinnamon and the nsync christmas cd and my warm warm warm house with warm warm warm smiles and hugs and questions about what i'm doing
-burroughs drive
-hiding in the stacks
-friends. i really need some friendship time. some sit on the couch and watch tv and not have to say anything until ready friendship time, some yohn and laura tell me honestly what's going on friendship time, in person. some solution time. some "i care about you" time. someone who wants to help me figure it all out time. or at least who will be there to hold my hand while i do time.
so alone. so so so alone.
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