There is no place for fear amongst the artistic. Those egos that we're said to have are self-induced inflations so we feel less dumb about putting our ideas out there. Just like a little girl standing in front of a boy saying "I like you" it sounds dumb, or could, if she isn't sure of her words and their weight in the air near his ears. Instead we learned to stand tall, build ourselves up and say "yeah I know that this could be dumb and sound stupid but here I am and this is what I've got"
I'm watching Andrew Bird on Ted.com and he's talking about feedback loops and the environment and how if things in nature get too close to where they came from bad things happen (feeding cows their own brains=mad cow disease, incest, inbreeding, etc.)
Today I didn't do much of anything. I changed the clock in my car to account for daylight savings time.
What about this idea about circles and cycles? What if it was translated to emotions like if the emotion gets too close to its originating point it becomes self-destructive. Can that correlate with heartbreak and self-analyzing? Sometimes I am so far deep inside my head that I don't enjoy the situation that I'm in, or don't experience something fully because my brain is thinking about what it is and what it means. The biggest problem is that I can't figure out how to make it stop. And this process of thinking rather than feeling is often self-destructive because then I prevent any kind of connection from occurring. I don't know what's wrong with me. Something for sure though. Maybe I am a self-destructive feedback loop.
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