People

I feel like I'm living for so many other people and their goals that I don't even have time to think about mine.

I'm doing this Dale Carnegie class because I'm sure it will provide good knowledge and growth, but it's not completely applicable to my life right now and it doesn't entirely just fit in with all the other things I have to think about. But I'm doing it because my Dad wants me to and because it was offered to me.

I'm working because my dad wants me to. I'm not doing anything at work, I'm not crucial to the process of anything I sit, and sit, and answer phones, and make copies, and sit.

I'm making certain choices because of the implications of other peoples' opinions.

I need to just leave, build my life somewhere else away from this stuff because it's starting to give me heartburn again. I'm always on some kind of edge, especially if I choose to care. If I decide to not care then I'm fine but then I don't care and I feel like a zombie!

I'm so frustrated in this little blunder of a place. I need to move, I need to leave and I need to grow on my own away from opinions, in spite of opinions, on my own time, terms and in my own directions.

OOOOOOOOH FRUSTRATION