Gentiles

Let's reflect for a moment on my life thus far - first boyfriend, gentile. second serious boyfriend, jewish. third - gentile. and from there the rest are jewish with a gentile thrown in here or there but the majority of my dating life has been laden with bagels and yom tov's.

I've dated jewish so many times that I even know some hebrew, what is kosher for passover and when the major holidays are. Probably more than those boys can say about their minimal knowledge of my santa-loving, jesus-believing religion. Dating across the religious spectrum though has allowed me to realize and confirm my own beliefs and create my own spiritualism.

Regardless, I never fail to be the shiksa-wannabe in the crowd without even trying. I swear, it's not like I'm seeking these situations out and sometimes (okay most of the time) I feel really isolated because of the closeness of Jewish people, especially Buffalo Jews (ie. my friends). they all know each other! they all went to camp together! their brothers and sisters know each other! I can say for absolute certainty that that is not how it was for me and my Christian brethren. we did the whole sunday school thing but I was not nearly as invested in forming life-long family-linked friendships with these people simply because we both believe in Jesus, Santa and Mary. It becomes awkward sometimes and I feel like an impostor because who would assume the girl who hangs out with all Jewish people who knew each other at birth and appears to be Jewish on the outside really is the odd-man out? And let's be real, I can put on a good show, not purposefully, just based on the knowledge I have accrued thanks to my relationships.

Can't wait to return to Denidoo's New England-style white Euro-gentile laden land. Hello Big Red Weekend, thanks for opening your arms to me. Seriously, college was the one time when I wasn't constantly surrounded by a group of jewish friends who had known each other forever and I still dated and befriended those of the Moses persuasion.




**Disclaimer: none of this post is meant to insult, degrade or emotionally harm anyone person or peoples. I love all people, but you have to admit the uncanniness of my life-long jewdar.