music

you know that feeling from some certain songs? that building up heat from deep inside you in a place very few people ever reach? the goosebumps and warming skin and chilling in your lungs that happens from the excitement of such a song that sings directly to you, to your own self? it makes my jaw ache with the sweetness of its caring for me. this song was made for me. it's this feeling, like i've met someone new who makes me feel like i can fly if I just hold his hand. It's the feeling that anything I want is possible if I just rely on myself and trust my instincts, this feeling of only needing right now, air, myself, and this song, right now. I love this feeling, it makes me feel an effervescent high that is unattainable with any kind of drug. It is so pure and clear and makes my throat feel like closing up but in a good way, a way that makes it harder to breathe, which makes it all the better because the song is challenging me to move past the emotive responses in my body, challenging me to take that, take that love that it has bestowed to me and to breathe anyway to not be consumed by my emotions, to work through them, to take them and appreciate them and to still breathe. Songs like this make me feel like dancing on the street corner, like those people i saw once down town. Songs like this make me feel magical. As though I could do whatever I wanted, as though I could change things for someone.

I am so glad I have met the people I have who make me feel this way too. They are the important ones. The ones who make a difference for me and make me feel like I have that ability too.